Tuesday, August 12, 2014

An Unexciting Update

... tap, tap... anyone out there?

I've been a bad blogger lately... you know when you procrastinate something, and then you procrastinate a little more, and then all of a sudden it seems like this massive thing you can't overcome? That's kind of how the blog feels to me.

So much of nothing going on and I don't know where to start.

Mostly, I'm in a total funk about everything. My heart is really aching for another baby and it's just not happening for us. We've been trying already for awhile, and every month that goes by is a little more painful for me. I talk about it a lot to my friends, but I don't always open myself up to the internet. But if you are reading, you probably care, and that's what is happening in our lives.

I use all my happy energy when Cameron is awake because I love her more than anything and she deserves a great mommy. But dang, when she goes to bed... I've been indulging in a lot of sadness. I thought that our infertility struggles were hard the first time around, but this time is truly excruciating. The only comfort is that after everything we went through before Cameron we knew that she came at the perfect timing for us. I know our next baby will come when the timing is right... but that doesn't make the process any easier!

This week I am trying a new approach to my days, changing some things and tempering my expectations once again. I'm feeling optimistic and energized and I'm going to enjoy my little family here and now.

SO... besides all that, we have been keeping busy around here!

At the end of July we took a week's vacation in Colorado. It was crazy, friends. It was hard trying to pack everything in to a week, and we didn't even get to see everyone we wanted to see. Cameron was completely exhausted from the constant chaos and then we all got a nasty virus that lasted almost the entire week. I miss my family and friends dearly, but that much activity makes for a cranky baby and a grouchy mama. Hopefully my next visit can be a little longer so we can be more normal and still see everyone we love!

Of course, no trip to Colorado would be complete without a visit to Nordstroms with Grammie. Our little grump insisted on scooting around in the hall while Grammie paid for a couple new things at Janie and Jack. Such a well-dressed, spoiled rotten cutie pie.

Who's that sweet girl in the mirror? Grammie indulged Cameron in her desire to be free (and not strapped into the stroller).

Is that not the cutest thing EVER? Cameron still isn't walking on her own everywhere, but she is doing laps around our house and figuring out how to stand up in the middle of the room.

We made our normal stop at Sixth and Pine at Nordstrom for lunch. I talked my mom into a drink and I think it was my favorite hour of the whole week. Exactly what I needed.

I did get to see a couple girlfriends on the trip (awww, sorry ladies, this was the best photo we got of all of us!). We took our girls to the splash pad and Cam HATED it.

She was not a fan of the water. My mom chased her around while I chatted with Carmen and Diana. Dang, I wish my mom came on all my play dates so I could actually chit-chat instead of chasing a crazy toddler!

My mom, Brice and I walked Cameron to the nearby park to meet Grandma Nay (Renee R!). Cameron loves swinging on the swings. Even though it was hot in Colorado, the lack of humidity felt amazing.

Brice and I celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary during our trip! One day we went to Boulder to celebrate. We took a picture with the buffalo on CU's campus (where it all started! ha!) and had dinner at Walnut Brewery to reminisce good times.

I designated our last day in Colorado as Family Day and we had the PERFECT day. We started at Snooze for breakfast, where I discovered the most amazing Blueberry Danish Pancakes ever. Then we headed to Perry's Pizza at 11:00a when they tapped a keg of Pliny the Elder - it was expected to be gone in a few hours, so we had to get there ASAP.

I just barely managed the picture above before Cameron totally melted down and I had to take her home for a nap by myself.

In the afternoon, Ben and I escaped in my dad's Corvette to pick up the supplies for dinner. We snapped this picture, complete with a fumanchu from my wild hair, and my mom said "I just knew there would be a Thelma and Louise moment while you guys were out!"

This was our epic dinner... Chick-Fil-A pizza! Ben put honey mustard sauce on top of our favorite Abo's dough, then topped it with mozzarella and cheddar cheeses, chicken nuggets and french fries. It was delicious.

The night was finished with a pinball tournament in the basement!

After 3 rounds, Dad and I tied for first place. We played a tie breaker head-to-head game, and Dad tried to cheat by cracking me up in the middle of my ball. I still kicked his butt!

Cameron actually fell asleep on the morning flight back to Shreveport. I failed to mention that she screamed the entire flight out to Colorado... so when she fell asleep Brice and I silently celebrated. It was a blissful 30 minutes. Unfortunately, the bliss was followed by a crabby baby who screamed for the last 30 minutes of the flight (her clogged ears were probably popping pretty bad). It was so loud and persistent that the crowd in front of us parted when the door opened so we could get the heck off that plane!

Since we've been home we have been up to our usual shenanigans. Cam's favorite thing to play with is my craft drawer full of pompoms. On this particular morning she was "sharing" them with Hops.

I've been sewing a bunch since I got home and have finished a couple outfits for Cam (because this child realllllllly needs more clothes in her closet!).

I'm horribly critical of my own work, but I have to admit my creations look pretty dang cute on these two troublemakers. My shorts pattern needs some mega-tweaking, so hopefully I can figure that out quickly!

Cam's favorite new game is not getting out of her crib after nap. She loves to run around it and play with me through the bars, but when it's time to come out it's meltdown time. Unless her Daddy is around, then she's happy for him to get her out!

Cam's also figured out the pantry is where the snacks come from... one morning (right after she refused to finish her breakfast) she abandoned the book we were reading, scooted to the kitchen and came back toting Daddy's box of Cheerios. Such a stinker, but she cracks me up.

I watched our friend's daughter last week while she had an appointment, and we had a blast! At first, the two girls fought like sisters and picked on each other, but we got over that and it was bliss the rest of the time. They played with each other and kept each other entertained and I got to sit back and enjoy watching them play. Having two kids one day will be great!

And that's my long-winded, photo heavy update of where we are at now.

Hopefully I will resume regular blogging. I definitely need another monthly update of Cameron because she's been picking off milestones left and right lately!

XO, Em

Friday, July 18, 2014

Photo Dump Friday

Two posts in one day! Can you handle it?

I didn't think I had too many cute pics to share, but I checked my phone and sure enough, I had a bunch I wanted to share.

Fun 4th of July outfit! I topped it off with a big sparkly headband and Cammie was excited about it too.

Our favorite tradition is going out for breakfast on the weekend. We are up pretty early and are always one of the first tables at our favorite restaurant. Cam loves to color when she's not screaming for her food and waving at strangers.

Cammie has learned she can stand at her bookcase and pull down all her books. I'm so happy she likes to read as much as Brice and I do.

I lost this watch back in December and have been distraught about it for months. I got it on our blowout trip to Vegas and it's probably my favorite watch, but it disappeared right around the time our bathroom construction began. I assumed it got lost in the shuffle of moving our stuff around, but have torn through the piles many times to find the watch. I lost the remote in the couch last week and tada! There was my watch!

Cammie's punishment for not walking is having to wear a dress everyday (because it's hard to crawl in a dress and I'm an evil mommy)

Eating corn on the cob like a big girl.

Mommy doesn't always do bath time, but when she does, she takes a selfie.

We went to Target with our BFFs and the girls got to carry around balls while we shopped.

The. Cutest. Ever.

My mom had a "WTF" moment last week and I got this picture in response.

Helping daddy harvest the veggies...

And then Daddy turned the hose on her!

Another weekend breakfast out... needed the sugar packets to occupy the time while we waited for our food.

Trying to score points with Grammie and Grandpa... go blue!

"Spicy" tongue after eating Chipotle - yum!

We harvested a ton of jalapeƱos, so I turned them into candied jalapeƱos! Can't wait to try them in two weeks after they have mellowed

This week we learned how fun the dryer is, and how helpful it is to load pieces from the washer one by one.

Brice got Cameron up one morning while I went in for a quick blood draw... this is what I got while I was on my way home. Trouble makers!

I got a little crafty to make some toys for Cam on the plane. I'm really hoping these will hold her attention for longer than two minutes to make a more enjoyable flight for everyone involved. Otherwise, plan B is stuffing her with puffs for 3 hours. The fun jar has a lid with a bunch of holes in it for her to put straws and pipe cleaners through.

XO, Em

Cameron Lee - Fourteen Months

A more appropriate title for this post would be: The 6th Tooth Might Kill Us.

It's true. Her first 5 teeth came up in the first couple months of this year and they were so easy. In fact, I made the mistake of saying it out loud. Then we went months without any sign of a new tooth.

About a month ago Cam started acting crazy, drooling a ton, waking at night, and getting weird diaper rashes. We would see a tooth poking up and think "here it is!", but the next day it would be gone and our happy girl would be back.

This has gone on for a month now... 3 days of craziness, 3 days of happiness, 4 days of misery, 2 days of normal life...

Last week was the worst, we had almost 7 straight days of a grumpy baby. Of course, my heart breaks for her because I can't imagine how painful it must be, but wow. It's painful for mommy too.

And the tooth is STILL not out.

I could have also titled this post: Nope, Still Not Walking

But I've given up on that front. Cameron can scoot and crawl to her college dorm room if she wants. But she's not going to get another cute pair of pants again.

So in summary, Cammie spent her 14th month being cranky and not walking.

Although she is a sweet, sweet girl. She is talking up an absolute storm and it is hilarious to hear what she's picking up on. My favorite is when Cam makes a mess and says "oh boy!", but it's also convenient that she can say snack, water and more because she was using one sign to mean all those things. That was confusing and frustrating for all parties involved.

Now, we are only a few days away from Cammie being 15 months old, so hopefully my next post will be more timely (don't count on it). Tomorrow afternoon we hop on a plane and sail off to Colorado for a week of Grammie heaven. Although my mom told me that she's technically on vacation too and she is only taking care of a happy toddler. Either way, it's going to be a crazy busy week and we are going to be having a lot of fun (and drinking a lot of good beer!).

XO, Em

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

I Sewed A Quilt!

So you know how just a few days ago I publicly proclaimed that I would probably never finish the quilt I've been working on for ages?

Ooohhhhhhhh SNAP!

I had a sudden burst of determination combined with an abundance of free time (thanks to Brice being home all weekend) and I finished that bad boy.

Pretty impressive, right? Can I say that about my own work?

Sewing a quilt was actually much easier than I thought it would be. It was incredibly time-consuming, but it wasn't all that difficult.

I followed this tutorial and used this fabric bundle from the Fat Quarter Shop, plus additional yardage from the same collection for the back.

I almost didn't want to start the project when my fabric arrived in the mail, it was so pretty and I didn't want to screw it up!

The front came together nicely, but the back is a HOT MESS. I decided to use the triangle scraps from the front to make lines in the back, but they were very uneven. Then, I tried to fit perfectly square pieces of fabric into the uneven lines and was left with the resulting puckering.

Oh well. It's a quilt to take to the park! Puckers are the least of my worries.

I made up the entire back as I went (probably another reason it's a mess), but I had the genius idea to sew our last name into it and I couldn't be stopped. I used Moda's letter tutorials to make the blocks (although I sized down the pattern to make it fit onto my quilt better).

And now, no one can steal my awesome blanket from the park because chances are slim their last name is Kahler too!

The letters were definitely the hardest part of the entire quilt, it stretched my mind in ways I didn't need it stretched. But in the end I'm pretty happy.

I knew Cam would love it because she gave it hugs and kisses every time I had it out.

Yesterday, we took it for a test drive in the backyard and I got two big thumbs up from Cammie.

Today, we took it on our playdate at the park and it was officially sworn in for duty. The quilt's already full of dirt, slobber, snacks and bark - exactly what it was made for!

Unfortunately, I was too busy cuddling the sweet 10-week old baby that came to snap a picture of the quilt, so you will have to trust me that it was epic ;)

XO, Em